I'm more often than not a happy-go-lucky gal. Woman would most likely be the best term to use there, but I refuse to admit I'm actually twenty-six!! Okay. So, in an attempt to maintain my preferred relaxed demeanor, I often suppress things. Much like my age. See? I just did it again! Geesh!
I believe it's a form of escapism. Due to dealing with excessive amounts of "crap" in my life, I've developed this way of dealing/not dealing with things. Seems to work out alright until I get that snowball effect going.
Life at work has become quite a snowball. In case I haven't mentioned it before, I'm the director of an outreach program for youth, and the clerical assistant, here at our lowly nonprofit. I love what we do, but my works been a bit questionable for me lately. I've been seriously thinking about severing my own head with a sharpie, in attempt to relieve some stress. Not just in that last long hour either.
I've been extremely stressed about all the stuff I have to do and the fact that there's not enough time to do it. I have two full-time positions as one. And I'm salary. We're a nonprofit. I understand, but it's been getting to me.
So, I became completely discouraged, didn't want to do any of it and started looking for another job. See? COMPLETE AND TOTAL ESCAPISM!!!
Yesterday, I finally spilled my guts to my boss. I didn't cry at first. I worked up to that. She reacted remarkably well. I was certain I'd be looking for another job, or at least be bumped to part time, which I can't afford.
We discussed the root of the problem, and she offered a solution that I didn't know was an option. Things are looking up! Perhaps escapism is not the best way to deal (or not to deal) with things after all. I'm amazed!
Side Note: My boss is pretty awesome.
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The lovely Shannon from Tattoos & Cupcakes ganked this from Tia , and I just couldn't help myself. I know I said I'd be blather...
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It's not often that I feel impressed to verbally bash someone. Leave a puppy in a truck all afternoon , or sit at a green light for an e...
we all do it...want to escape...the trick is finding a responsible way to escape.
ReplyDeletei told you that talking to her would help....
Glad to hear I'm not the only one.
ReplyDeleteMy mother said the same thing. You were both correct, but I generally like to become completely overwraught before taking good advice. Or so it seems.
is escapism a real ism?
ReplyDeleteor did you just add it yourself?
Dont lie Heather....I caught you.
DRATS! ^__^
ReplyDeleteYou did make me doubt myself though. I wasn't sure for a minute. So I wiki'd it.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Escapism
I'm convinced that escapism works sometimes - I call it Fake it til you make it - and every once in a while you make it! But, yeah, sometimes it's a bad strategy.
ReplyDeleteIt's worked for YEARS, but now what?!?! ^__^
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